same mistake time after time.

Hey All

I havent posted in a long time. I have been busy getting a new job and trying to get on with my life. The ex-N and I split 11 months ago and I have been no-contact ever since.

I am glad to see so many of the people who I was on here iwth have moved on and have made such great progress.

He isnt the problem - the problem is me I think. I started to see someone else and it was lovely but 8 weeks in... degenerating into something which doesnt make me feel good.

It was lovely at first but now I have started to feel paranoid, insecure and unlovable. I know some of these things are mine to deal with but I just wonder if I am doomed to keep on making the same mistakes again and again despite doing the work and getting to indifference with ex N.

Is it possible that I am just a very bad picker - this person I have been seeing has great big rages and I seem to get the blame for things like losing a key.

I have also been told that it is all about me and that if they bring up something that is worrying them I then have a bigger drama to counteract this. I am not sure that I do .... and I certainly dont shout and rage.

I feel like I am making the same mistake again when that was what I was trying most to avoid.

Any thoughts would be great - thank you.
xx