Sad :(
Sad :(
I feel really sad :(
I had a really tough weekend regarding a heart stabbing argument with my father who is an N. I contacted my exN.. and before I did it I almost KNEW that I was going to be upset after. I knew that contacting him was going to feel like getting a fix of some drug that I needed to stop thinking about my N father and think about this one. I don't know why I think this N is easier to cope with than my N father because they both kill me.
He responded immediately saying "who is this?" I said "nvm, good to know u deleted my number" he said "?" I told him who it was and he said "Oh. Please don't text me again." I said "Ok." I said "Sorry, didn't want you to think this was about you. Just needed a distraction."
He didn't reply. I know why I did it. This always seems to happen when I'm triggered by my father. It's like clockwork. But how to I break this vicious cycle that kills me?
I feel like a psycho :( I feel like I'm the stalker now. I feel like I out-crazied my ex N and my N father. Ugh :( :(
They want you to contact them
I think thats why he said
Im so sorry that you are
janemarie
I understand
Yes...I understand...I wish I
Hey, we can only go forward
Your daughter is so lucky to
I agree.....
Cassandra, Don't be too hard
You make a VERY good point.
Take a deep breath...
My Mom told me not to marry
janemarie<3
Yes we are here....and have