...REDRUM.....
...REDRUM.....
i did a a series of posts on my blog...that i've taken down because of a couple of stalkers...about him trying to murder me......
the day he tried to murder me the first time...he'd washing down handfulls of wellbutrin...given to him by a hack psychiatrist he'd conned...he'd been sucking down quarts of booze....and i told him i wanted a divorce...
'just leave' is the mantra of the dumbasses... 'just leave if you don't LIKE it... DIVORCE HIM'.....
when i told him i wanted a divorce...he attacked me...like a lion..he lunged at me...slashed my face with a wallpaper knife....held me face down on the bed and tried to smother me to death...with me begging him not to kill me in front of my babies...to to not kill them too...
and... he never broke a sweat... he wasn't even breathing hard...he was calm... and he was SMIRKING... he was killing me..with COMPLETE NONCHALANCE... and he was CHANTING... 'i'm going to kill you bitch.. i'm going to kill you bitch'... like he was reciting his favorite nursery rhyme.....
and it was't a random act of violence...it was a completely personal act of violence....
his hatred of me was very real...and very personal....i was keeping him from drinking all he wanted to drink..from spending every last dime on booze.......he was ready, willing able and intent on murdering me....over a bottle of booze......that's how little value i had....i was standing in the way of him and booze...and he was willing to kill me over it.....
he was ready willing able and intent on killing me...and all my innocent pets.....over a bottle of booze....you read about these things..and your sickened by it....but until you've LIVED it....
i'll never get over it...as hysterical and terrified as i was...i noticed that he wasn't even breathing hard....there was no quaver in his voice......
i can't explain it exactly....but i felt...at that moment..that he was TOTALLY HIMSELF....that for the first time EVER...i was seeing him without his makeup.....for the first time ever he seemed completely AT EASE.....
...I NEVER SAW HIM MORE CALM AND RELAXED.....
Reminds me of the eerie calm when exN'd dog was killed
WOW!
The calm