Reality Check

Hi all, This is my first post.
I have been lurking here for a few weeks, reading all the information i can from Lisa's and Goldie's blog as well as reading the forum posts. I can really relate to alot that is written here although i don't know if my ex is a narc or maybe i'm still in denial?

I thought i'd post now to vent and share my story.
The ex and i broke up 4 months ago for the 3rd time. We were together for a year and a half. Each time he broke up with me for the same reasons, due to him maybe having to leave the country in the middle of this year. As he doesn't have a job and his study visa will run out. The last 2 times he broke up with me, i let go and he always come back and wanted to get back together, him agreeing that he would continue to try and stay in the country but since then his health hasnt been so great so he hasn't been applying for jobs. Are these all just excuses?

Before the last time we broke up he had been staying in my house for 3 weeks, we seemed to be very happy and enjoying our time together and talking future. But for a few days he was dead quiet, i asked him what was wrong, he said i don't think your the one for me and that it was over. We both cried together and he left my house. Him later calling me that night asking for time because he was unsure about the relationship, i told him if you are unsure now you will never know. That's when i started no contact.

For 2 months i did not contact him but i could still see his updates on fb and twitter, big mistake i know now. He was adding all these girls to facebook as well as sub tweets aimed at me.
Thats when i gave in and called him. He addmited that he was trying to get my attention. I got very emotional on the phone because i had been holding it all in for 2 months. I was looking for answers to the break-up, he applogized and said that he didn't know what he was saying when he broke up with me and that he is most likely going to leave the country mid year. He said the relationship was too stressful for him because he knew he couldnt make a commitment to being here. He also added that he knows it's hard for me because i don't know when he is going to come back? We both agreed that if either of us wanted to talk that we could call each other, which i now regret agreeing to because all i'm getting is mixed signals from him.

I look back on our relationship and it was really great, we had chemistry and we were always real with each other, no lieing or cheating that i know of. No huge arguments.

Because of the way it ended and the things he has said since the break-up everyday i find myself asking the same questions over and over, was it really real? did he ever even care? was it all an act to get what he wanted at the time? Is he hurting like i am right now?

I'm finding this very hard because i feel as though i have no one to talk to, i have no job. This is what occupies my thoughts everyday! I feel angry and sad, sometimes i have so much anger i just want to call him and call him out on everything that he said and did. All these mixed emotions!
How do i handle this?
Is he a narc?
I need this fog to clear so i can see straight again.
Thoughts and opinions on this situation will be appreciated.