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It was 6 weeks ago that a psychiatrist told me the guy making me crazy in my life was a narcissist.

I read everything I could, found this sit, talked to therapists, went NC.

And I've accepted that this horribly devastating thing happened to me. I've been doing okay, moving forward, or trying to.

Yesterday I had to drive 4 hours by myself to bring my daughter in college some of her things. And today, back home, 4 hours alone.

And I could not get that N out of my mind! I wasn't sad or crying. I think I was still trying to process and understand. But it was tiring and all consuming.

So my question is this: There will never be closure or complete understanding. How can we understand behavior that is devoid of humanity? So I will never have every question answered or know what he did in his secret life.

At what point does the processing end?

At what point can I set my boundary and not allow him in my head any longer?

How do I know I processed enough to release all my feelings and that it's safe to BLOCK him from my thoughts?

Thanks for any help...

Lisa