PTSD relapse

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#1 Aug 21 - 11PM
realized
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PTSD relapse

Its been over 1.5 years since I left and 2 years since he raped me (among other things) and I could see a light at the end of the tunnel until yesterday.

My potential presence at a large party where I know he'll be at gave me an intense panic attack. The fear, the dread and the nerves all came back. I should be thankful for it because its a reminder that it wasn't all in my head, that the reactions and fear were real.

But its affecting me deeply. I hate myself for not being strong, for still being single, for him waltzing through life partying and conning more and more and more women (and men).

I know karma is supposed to take care of him, but does that really happen? I feel such shame in not being over this and want him to suffer like me.

Aug 22 - 7PM
Sallygirl
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panic attack

Aug 22 - 5PM
Hunter
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There is great feedback

Aug 22 - 2PM
aurora
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Just Keep Going

Aug 22 - 12AM
what.a.mess
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His entire world is fake and

Aug 22 - 1AM (Reply to #2)
realized
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i know but

Aug 22 - 12PM (Reply to #5)
Used
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i know but its not enough. he

Aug 22 - 12PM (Reply to #6)
Goldie
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Excellent Used!!!!

Aug 24 - 3PM (Reply to #8)
realized
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thanks Goldie

Aug 24 - 7PM (Reply to #12)
realized
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also ...

Aug 24 - 5PM (Reply to #10)
Luv2bme
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So familar

Aug 24 - 7PM (Reply to #11)
realized
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same N

Aug 24 - 5PM (Reply to #9)
Luv2bme
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Layers..,

Aug 24 - 12AM (Reply to #7)
Luv2bme
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Self admiration..,

Aug 22 - 9AM (Reply to #3)
spinning
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hi, realized,

spinning

Aug 22 - 3PM (Reply to #4)
realized
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Feeling shame...