Sounds like depression and exhaustion. I know when mine went away, I felt so relieved. The a few days before he came back I would start getting anxious. Knot in my stomach. As the ETA started arriving, then I got the PTSD shakes, fear, weeping.
Actually, his being gone made me realize what a Hell my life was when he was around. I was so much "lighter" & relaxed when he was away. And, I didn't want him back. While he was at a conference, I read the "Gaslight Effect." I read verbatim the abusive exchanges my N had with me on a regular basis. He was in the most abusive category & dangerous according the book. I was so scared. When he came back, I told him we were quits.
It was hard to leave him. He was wild, enraged, & very abusive. But, I have never regretted it. I would suggest no discussions. When you're ready to leave, just get some VERY BIG men to get your stuff, preferably when N is away, out of the house, & disappear. File for divorce, do whatever you need to do to be rid of him.
they drain you of all physcial emotional and spiritual energy......i'm still tired all the time from havig my soul sucked....i could sleep for 100 years and probably still be tired..
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It sound like it to me , in the last few weeks of beiing with my narc all i wanted to do was sleep , i think it was because i had every last ounce of energy sucked out of me . One of the intresting things i read here is when you sleep its the brains way of healing PTSD , boy do we need it , if you are still ith him my heart goes out to you , the crazyness , the madness the shaming and blameing is enough to drain a saint . Have you thought about leaving ?
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