Please tell me what you think

When my ex D&D'd me after 7 yrs (every time he did it I ran after him, didn't this time) I didn't cry, I didn't beg him to stay, i told him "know that I know you can't stand me and want nothing to do with me I can move forward, I also lied and told him it was closer for me and that's all I needed to move on, the night he D&D'd his words were " I have to flush 7 yrs of my life down the toilet" I asked him WHY , he only said " because I have to. And that's when I told him about the moving on and closer, A frond of mine told me I actually turned the D&D back on him as in I did the D&D, I don't see it that way, just wanted to know what you all think. Everytime I tell they he got rid of me, they say no you got rid of him