Please help I am going through hell

6 weeks ago he left me to go to the US from his house in Germany to sort out his family issues, his last words being I love you. Having just returned from a year in Afghanistan.

Only received 2 emails in the first three weeks saying his "life is in ruins" or "my life is just too crazy right now" and "I hope you are well" on each email. no I love you or anything. It was teh first time I had an email with no affection. Ok I thought.

I committed the cardinal sin for the first week and emailed once a day not knowing reallly what was happening. my emails were brief but supportive and kind.

End of week 1, All I wanted was closure and at the end of week one I said I loved and respected him but to just email me back a Y or N to tell me it was over. You guessed it, no reply at all.

Week 2, Not knowing any of his family or friends I found an old email from a friend of his who I begged to help me. They emailed him got through to him and said he was fine just dealing with a lot of stress in his life.You guessed it no further email from him to me.

Now in week 6 he is back in Germany, wont talk to me on IM, I have Instant messaged him once and just said "hi" then the same day I emailed him very brief and said would you accept me as a friend and cant we put the past behind us?

Having not spoken to him in 6 weeks now after speaking with him every day for 7 months in hard to take.

I accept I have been dumped the silent way which has nearly driven me to the point of madness.

I never got any explination of what happened at all, why he did it and what I did. We never fought, we never ever said a bad word to one another. I was due to be moving with in with him now on his many requests not mine. I loved him more than I can tell you all. I have no family or friends, so he was my world.

Please don't attack me on this I just need some hugs