please help - feel shattered all over again
please help - feel shattered all over again
N's sister, with whom I am friends and who supports me in what happened because the N has done unspeakable things to her, is in town with her kids for a visit. Its been almost a year since the N's brutal D&D, and there has been no contact from him. So his sister tells me that the N just threw a fit because he overheard that she plans to see me and thought I had been invited to a lunch he is attending. He would only refer to me as "that person" and wanted a guarantee that there was not going to be "a scene" or "a situation" from which he'd have to extricate himself. His sister said she couldn't believe the rage in his voice when he spoke about me - she has no idea what he's so furious about. HE abandoned ME. I should just laugh it off and say he's crazy, but I feel small and beaten and defenseless, like I have to voice and no way to defend myself against false accusations. I feel sick, nauseated, unable to continue my work day. I'm having an anxiety attack. What the Hell is wrong with me????? Omg. I want to call him after almost a year and BEG him not to hate me, convince him I loved him and never did him harm, even after he left me without a goodbye. What's wrong with me? Someone please tell me I'm not crazy. I can't breathe.
What the Hell is wrong with
i want to
He's nuts, he's a freak, he's
i only got away
Hey Dev
Mine did me the same
you have those days, too, Hunter?
There you go.. Screw him..
Dev and Dis, please take a deep
spinning
i think i need to sign up for those counseling sessions
thank you for responding to my crisis mode