Perspective

I personally haven’t heard of anyone who died from a broken heart. Note I choose my words wisely, as there may be a case of someone who has – indirectly.

Maybe someone stopped eating which caused complications with their diabetes, maybe someone engaged in other self destructive behaviors; however when I talk about the broken heart, I am referring to that gut wrenching, anxiety, sad feeling you have when you have been emotionally devastated and betrayed. I don’t know anyone who’s ever died from that pain – just know a lot of people who wanted to.

This is actually a promising thing because now that we can acknowledge that no matter how hurt we are – we won’t die from it, we have a little more time to contemplate things.

This morning, I’m thinking about perspective. I posted Rascal’s It’s a Beautiful Morning on my Facebook page. Do I feel that? NOPE – but, I don’t feel it’s a dreary or dismal day either. I read somewhere once, that if you force yourself to smile, even if you don’t feel like it, eventually the mood will wear off on you. I’m not sure if it’s true but hey, I’m grabbing at any happiness straw that I can. While I cannot be perky perky and even if I tried, you’d probably figure out how to throw virtual tomatoes (which could be a good thing because you’d have to FOCUS on how to do that which would get you off Narc thoughts) I feel that this morning would be as good a day as ever to shed some light on perspective.

Resting on faith, I’m pretty certain none of us will die today. That’s a good thing BUT, more importantly, I think we really need to focus more on LIVING. These darn Narcs have a way of occupying space even when they’re not around!

So…from my perspective there are an infinite number of things to be thankful for.

1. My child is healthy
2. I am disabled but fairly healthy
3. I have all my limbs, fingers and toes
4. I have shelter
5. I have food
6. I have the basics that I need to survive
7. I’m not homeless
8. I have a computer
9. I have cable TV
10. I have a car

To some these may be frivolous things…I’m a girl of simple means; however, why take those things for granted? While we are sitting here harping on some ASSHOLE, and at the end of the day, forget labels, he’s an ASS! We are obsessing and clinging to a fraud a dingle berry on the face of humanity rather than appreciating all we do have, wasting energy, time and emotions on someone who could give a fig. Instead, we could use that energy to be fully present in the moment – with our children, our family, our friends, our loved ones who aren’t necessarily guaranteed to be here tomorrow.

We take for granted that we have an apartment or house, and we walk around moping, "Oh, why did the Narc do this? How could he? What did he mean when? And right now, somebody is sleeping in an alleyway and may not have eaten for two days.

Right now, at this moment, somebody who had a lot of life left in them may be battling a terminal illness. Someone who had a lot of promise and did nothing wrong may be struggling through their last breaths – and here we are with all our health albeit a bruised ego and a heart pang but somehow it’s been blown out of proportion…we can’t eat, we can’t sleep, we can’t “live” we cling to the Narc. Try gaining sympathy and support from the young man or woman who is looking death in the eye fully aware of their future. They have no choice.

Like I said, the list could go on and on, but I think you get the gist. I think it is helpful to try to put things in perspective from time to time. Once you do, it makes things seem just a bit more bearable.

By all means, we must focus on ourselves, but not so much so that we lose sight of what’s important. Whether or not Narcs are Narcs, assholes or freaks of nature – we’ve been given the gift of another day. If it were our last day on earth, what would we do? Would we still choose to spend it feeling bad and harping on the Narc? I’d do my darndest not to.

Resting on faith I don’t believe today is my last day on earth – but I will do my darndest to try to live as if it were. I will try to spend a little extra quality time with my son even though right now he wants nothing to do with me – he’s at that age…

I’ll try to spend time with my cat…now that’s a creature who really does love me unconditionally and he won’t be here forever.

More than anything, I will try to be selfish with my time and do things for me. Every time I think of the Narc, I will try to imagine someone else suffering some unfortunate fate and I will try to put my energy, focus and prayer in that direction – much more productive than a dead soul I dare imagine.

What can you be thankful for today? It is a beautiful morning…it’s all about perspective. Click on the link below and when you go out today whether there is sun or clouds, wear sunscreen!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ