patterns

ok I had another light bulb go off in my head now that I think back when they are hot and cold mine would go in streaks, for weeks he would be distant, called to basically check in, never said much then he would call and start up again with the charm, telling me he missed my body, how hot I was, the truth of the matter there was during his cold phase he was working someone else had little time to focus on me he was in a honeymoon phase with a new victim I imagine, but had to call and give me just enough to keep me on the back burner when the time came he would get sick of the new supply then recycle me. That is what the GF has to go thru too, he shuts her out, only difference is he doesnt recyle with the GF, he just makes sure she stays around so he has constant supply to come home to when he wants to shack up with her. So while I was crying, missing him, wanting to be with him he was bedding someone else and screwing his brains out meanwhile telling me he missed me, and that his life was nothing but working OT and just so busy he hasnt had time to do much of anything, I am sure that OT was spent bedding new victims. I recall he was with me and told me he had to check in with his GF, while he was talking to her he was putting his hands down the back of my jeans and trying to have sex with me, as he was telling her I am home from work baby, I am tired talk to you tomorrow. I thought how can he do that to her, TO HER??? and how could I be apart of such deceit? TO HER????? he was also doing that to me, getting ready to have sex with someone else after checking in with his GF, that would be ME too, I was also the GF to many other victims, did I think for one minute that I was so special that he had a GF and only me on the side? Yes I actually believed that, they have LOTS AND LOTS OF GF's so GF is a term I dont put ANY merit into at all, its just a word to them, lets replace that word with others such as , GF= f--k, GF= steady supply, GF=front, Gf=excuse, GF=another victim, GF=someone you can parade around to look normal, iN THE END I got to see just what GF means to these guys, GF could be a partner they use to swing with and just a lure to show others he isnt really a sex deviate predator but just a normal guy who isnt happy in his relationship looking for his dream partner, GF is suppose to make me believe he isnt a single psycho playboy who rapes others, poor little psycho afterall he is just looking for his true love like everyone else its not his fault he got in a relationship that isnt going anywhere. So come on be my new victim and believe all my promises, you could replace that GF that I am not content with, you could be the one my true love and soul mate ewww sorry there is just one little catch in the end, I dont really have a GF and I am not content with ANYONE!!!!!!