Pain again

I MISS HIM!!
I had to get that out here as opposed to letting HIM know as really triggered today. Been LC (due to work) for a while but turned a corner at work today and bumped into him. I was doing my best to look confident nonchalant and he made a comment. "You timed that wrong!". Not sure what he meant and can overanalyze things but felt like an accusation. It was said in a way that made him look sad..Im sure it wasnt as THEY dont feel anything. An opportunistic moment whilst I was off guard. But needed to share as my confidence is helped due to reading and reading and reading all about these creatures affirms what Im doing is right...but it brought me down. Back to pondering the "good" times, the idealization and what Im missing.(more abuse! in reality) Questioning myself once again.."am I being too harsh?" Is he really that bad" but I needed to read the posts on here to remind me that he is and even worse. Like Hunter says again and again..and I googled the link "rinse....repeat". This place always makes me feel better, comfortable with my choices I have made and reinforces Im doing the right thing and Im glad I can come here when feeling low or doubtful or weak. It gives me strength to continue to my future happiness without the madness. So thanks everyone no matter what stage you are at you all give me hope that I can and will get through to the other side.
Lxx