Overwhelming CD

It's almost 6 months since I made the decision to leave.
Almost 4 since I left.

I have no desire to see or speak to the N.
I am on LC with mainly texts.
I do however think about and dream about him often.
The weekends are especially hard.

I have been reading, reading, reading blogs and posts.
I have been doing things for me.
I have been keeping busy doing home projects, taking walks, doing thing with friends.

I don't miss him - I miss what I thought was my life, my family, my home.

The CD is overwhelming at times.