Overwhelmed
Overwhelmed
It's been about 7 weeks of no contact, which I was starting to think was a mistake until I found this site. Thank you Lisa E. Scott and all of you who post.
Sharing is a little scary, because I begin to fear he will somehow know what site I'm on, recognize the details and become more angry (which I guess sounds pretty self-centered, but each time I've tried to separate from him before, he stalked me). Then there is all the shame I feel for the years of verbal and physical abuse he put me through, and that my kids witnessed it and how they are affected. Frustration at this mish-mash of emotions and cluttered thoughts and incoherent babble. I'm furious that it's almost 2 months and we're just now able to begin returning to a routine, I still sometimes cry, and second-guessing myself is now second nature. And there is still the divorce to deal with (as soon as I can get the money together since he depleted almost everything I had).
I understand this gets better with time, but he's already gotten the better part of a decade out of us. How much longer does it get to be about him?! Many people have told me lately to find my anger and let it out. Now that I've typed this, I just might.
*deep breath*
Thank you all
I feel ashamed/humiliated
Mine was 20 yrs. Know what
theresa
theresa
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victimnomore
Hi OpenEyes
Journey on...
Thanks Journey