From one addiction to another
From one addiction to another
Well, at least this addiction is more healthy! I am referring to my addiction to this site (my previous addiction being the N). I am on here constantly. All of my time used to be filled up by him, now I go here instead.
It's funny though, my insecurities are following me here too. I don't feel like I am in a place to offer advice, so I stay mostly quiet here, unless it's to express something that I can relate to in another member's post. This makes me feel needy, and somewhat selfish, and afraid that the people on here won't like me!
So, that brings me to my core issue, one that I have been dealing with my whole life - my fear that I won't have friends, or that people won't like me. I can see now how my relationship with "the child" (that's what I call him)fed from and into this fear. In the beginning, I was so great, so wonderful, the only woman he's ever felt this way about, so smart, so beautiful, so talented. Then, even when he started devaluing me, his feelings for me were so intense it served somehow to validate me as a person. Now I just feel lost, floating around through life afraid again that I am annoying, and that I won't have that kind of connection ever again.
I have never been able to view myself as important and lovable, I guess. I just don't know how. I am in therapy, and a working on myself, I just seems to be such a steep road.
Thank you everyone for all of
You've expressed what many of
Journey on...
You are kind...you are smart...you are important...
Needshelp, thank you for
Oh GF
Hey-I admire your honesty and
Great idea.
Needshelp, my sweet!
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