OMG help

Okay, I don't need you all yelling at me and condemning me for this... so please don't.

I did something.. I have suspected for a LONG time that he is Gay or Bi. If you read my story in the 'Share Your Story' section, you'll understand why. He swore to me up and down that after what I found out in 2009, that he wasn't and that he was in a molestation/abuse place and was molested into it.

Well, I know he's on sex sites now... and his choices are: women, couples (man & woman) and couples (2 women). So, I created a phoney profile as if it were a couple (man & woman) with disgusting pictures and I exchanged messages with him. Here's what I found out: He wants to meet the couple and have sex... " content deleted "

I KNOW okay that it isn't serving me any good to do that. But you're not me and didn't have to walk my life with him. I NEEDED to find out for sure.

OMG I want to throw up. I'm shaking. I've deleted my fake profile from there now b/c I found out what I wanted to find out. And he has himself posted up there as STRAIGHT!!!! Yeah right!!! " content deleted "

How on earth... HOW am I EVER supposed to trust a man again? OMG, I thank God and Jesus for saving me from marrying him (we were engaged). OMG. OMG.

It's all so sick. I know I CANNOT look into him anymore now. But how am I supposed to even get past this? Knowing that I was with a sexual deviant bi/gay man for 5 years? OMG.