Ode to a Toad

I hope you guys don't mind...I've pasted a copy of my poem here. It's very long, but I didn't know how to put the link on there? I wrote this before I had figured out that the stbxhnp was what he is.....kind of perceptive of me eh?
ODE TO A TOAD

Have you ever met a man too good to be true?
You’d better beware, this could happen to you.
A man who is strong and charming indeed,
whom wants to take care of your every need?
Whom loves you completely, and can’t be without
your love and your presence? Then you’d better doubt!
For what he is seeming, is not what he is
He’s a wolf in sheep’s clothing, looking after his biz!
He’ll woo you and win you . You don’t stand a chance.
Beware of these men, they seem all romance,
truth is now told, they’re a Liar in dance!
A dance he’s perfected and knows how to start.
When the dance is done, he’s stolen your heart.
His is untouched, for he is not able..
He loves you no more than he loves a table!
He can walk in your door ,so ardent and true..
but when he walks out, he’s empty and through.
No matter the promises, no matter the price.
he’s on to his next , all happy and nice!
While he makes you believe you’re the only one
that gives him purpose, love, meaning and fun?
A hole in your heart is all that’s left when he’s done,
Not one single word he’s told you is true,
you were never the one, or even the two!
It’s all deception , all deviant lies..
you only see HIM, when he’s saying good bye!
Only then will you visit his mind, the real him;
the liar, the cheat, the monster within.
He’ll look in your eyes without even a wink
“it was all just lies…why else would you think
that I could have meant all the things that I said?
Why surely you see, it was all in your head?
I never loved you! I never meant those things.”
…and it’s on with his dance.. next victim please?
“You think you’re so smart, you think you’re so clever,
When I said that I loved you, I didn’t say forever!”
“But darling, my darling, can’t you see that I’m shattered?
How can you say that my love never mattered
How can you tell me it’s all just a lie?
How can you leave without telling my why?
My soul mate, my husband, my lover my friend
How can you tell me that this is the end??

The hurt you are left with
the questions, the pain…
makes not a whit to him, for he’s doing it again
to someone else whom is all unsuspecting,
who wants and needs love,
and that’s what they’re expecting.
Alas, there’s their prince on a shiny white horse!
but the prince is a toad, when you trust him of course.
For when you are down, all lonely and blue,
that’s when he appears, to come dance with you.
He’ll ask you questions, as if he cares
he’s just toying with you !
That’s what dancing liars do!
“I’m done with this partner,
so on to the next…..
I wonder how easy, or how complex?
I’ll get her to trust me ,and give me herself
I’m like a great lover,( I’m evil himself)!
I’ll win her and schmooze her and lie to her too..
and I’ll laugh at her tears when I know that I’m through!
For how could they let me just do I want?
Don’t they see in my eyes?, I’m a liar in hunt!
For I’m not a lover, a lover can love
I’m a dancer. A liar! Cursed, not from above.
I’ll use you. Lie to you. Spit you out when through..
Then leave you so fast you won’t know what to do!
When you question and wonder what has happened to you?
I’ll ignore you, forget you, for I’ve too much to do!
I’ve got women all over that are waiting on me!
For I’m dancing and lying and busy you see..
I’ve no time for caring or fixing what’s broken!
I’m out for MY needs, you were only a token!
A token , a past time, a notch on my belt..
for deception and challenge was all that I felt.
I forgot you, don’t know you ,don’t care what you do..
You’re history my darling, our dance is through!
You’re crying ? You’re hurting? Oh what a pity..
but I got to run, the next waiting for me!
So what if I did marry you, lie to children too?
Should know I meant “I might” when I said “I do”!
The prenup was my ticket to leave
Got to get out of here, I can hardly breathe!
You’re a wonderful person, a good wife too
But I don’t want this anymore, I’m through!
I’m anxious. I’m cornered. I’m smothered you see..
imprisoned and cluttered, I’ve got to be free!
I’m a dancer, a liar, a prince on a horse
You’re a fool for believing that wasn’t my course!
I said I loved you as much as I can…
What do you expect from a psychopath man?
The moral of my story if you haven’t seen it yet
this could happen to you….so I hope you don’t let
the prince on a horse dance into your life..
Woo you, romance you, even make you his wife!
He’s nothing more than an ambivalent joke!
When you love the prince, he turns into a toad!
The fairy tale told us with a happy ending
Was the toad to a prince in the beginning
But this is real life, my heart now was sold
To the prince on a horse that turned into a toad.
There are many that wonder the streets where you live
Be wary indeed, so your heart you don’t give
For it will only bring you sorrow and pain
And you’ll never be the same again.
Don’t listen to their words, for none are true
Just watch them and judge them by what they do.
They are sly, sexy, charming, witty and great,
If you let them inside you then doom is your fate.
For your value, your ego, your self esteem
Will soon be vanished and but a dream
You’ll be stripped to nothing, a nerve without end
And question yourself about how this began?
It began when the prince rode into your storm
And made you feel loved, secure and warm….
He made you laugh and liked just who you were
So you thought, now you know, it is all but a blur.
Don’t ponder or wonder or beat yourself up
For they’re born without heart, no love in their cup.
They’re empty, so empty and lonely as can be
For he loves not himself, how could he love me?
So off with you dancer, my prince on a horse
You can’t even love, what could be worse?
Love is the strongest most cherished emotion
Stronger and deeper than water of oceans
Be gone. Ride your horse and please hit the road
For my prince is nothing but a lowly toad.

RIP AH
By JCR