Nothing Wrong
Nothing Wrong
I'm sorting some of these things out in my brain.
I'm so good at blaming myself calling it 'taking responsibility' and then beating myself up. Blame and guilt. Actually, feeling guilty kept me sucked in because I'd go back at times to 'make it right'
In talking it out, I'm getting reactions like "well that was healthy, you were standing up for yourself" or "that happens all the time, it's not that big of a deal really"
Or even seeing responses on these forums such as "No. You really aren't that person. It's not who you are. It's who you are WITH HIM, when HE sucks you in and mind-fucks you"
And it feels a bit like having wobbly legs and trying to learn to walk again.
Can that be true?
Is it really okay to say "this....this was yours and as a result of being with you" and that my part was really as simple as staying (plus people-pleasing, not feeling worthy of love and all those attitudes, validation-seeking, etc....sure but....)?
I can see who I am without SocioNarc in my life and that's not the picture he painted, nor do I behave in the same ways (feel the same ways, think the same ways, you name it! ha).....but I struggle with it a little sometimes.
Grace
Grace
It's all about taking your power back
Blowing My Mind
Grace
Janie
Learning to walk, learning to
Trudging
I know what you mean.
I think honestly, what's true
Dee
Conditional
gracefully free
God's megaphone, Diedre
oh, i love that! i just love
While I was still with him,I
Me too!
even ''hello'' can be