So I was crossing the street after dropping off my daughters back at school this morning and WHAM! There he was, with his foster child. I was so shocked, as I usually keep an eye out for where he is and avoid him, but I didn't see him coming. I just said hello to the child and the narc gave me that god damned puppy dog, innocent look and smile and softly said, "Hi." I was in such shock I said, "Yeah. Hi" in this really surly tone. I'm so mad at myself! I was so obviously affected by him. He must be thrilled. Almost three weeks of partying without me around and then the second I see him I'm a mess. Grrrrrrrrrr.
Two and a half weeks have passed since I've seen him--and it's like nothing passed at all. I felt so far away from him over Christmas, with just a couple of little freak outs.
I can't do this anymore! Why why why am I still so affected by him?