Nervous about a hoover

I am doing well with no contact, and I have been trying to focus on myself. I still have severe anxiety when I leave my house, I feel like he could be watching me, or that I may see him driving with another woman. I also know that he will hoover soon as he always does. I am so nervous about this because last week I was doing really good and then it all came crashing down with him coming to my house to bring the baby stroller(Right).... I plan to to answer the door no matter what but I am still nervous.

I do not really have anxiety when it comes to me contacting him. I know that it would only bring pain and I am over hurting myself.

Does any one else have this anxiety? or feel nervous about a hoover?

I cannot wait until the day comes when I do not care about any thing, the day when I can say in over 30 days no contact, sometimes I wish I could go forward in time. This is by far the most horrible healing process I have ever been through. I need you all every day! Hugs to all of you who are in the beggining and to the ones I look to who are past these horrible days. XoXo, TOGB