Needing support today

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#1 Jan 5 - 9AM
Not-this-time
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Needing support today

Hello Friends!

I am just having a really, really bad day today! Actually, it started yesterday. I am Day 38 or 39 NC.

Every day of NC reminds me that there is no more turning back, that this is THE END. It still hurts though. I actually cried last night and today.

I think it's frustrating too because some days you feel really good and there are days like today, you just feel like you can't get over the hurt.

I told my therapist yesterday, the last half of 2012 was spent on extracting myself from the situation, just trying to survive and maintain NC. Now, I think I am at the emotional withdrawal phase. I don't want him back but I am really, truly mourning the demise of that dream, of the man I thought he was, and the losing of myself. I am also crying on how I allowed myself to put up with so much abuse and despite it all, he is still able to affect me like this.

'Just wanting to vent and get it out there! Thank you for reading!

Jan 5 - 11AM
Alibi_10
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Not this time

Jan 6 - 7AM (Reply to #16)
Not-this-time
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Alibi_10, I like what you

Jan 5 - 10AM
NoMoreFreakBoy
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You have to grieve I think...

Jan 6 - 11PM (Reply to #14)
petite7heaven
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Thank-you!

Jan 6 - 7AM (Reply to #13)
Not-this-time
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NMFB, I am actually printing

Jan 5 - 11AM (Reply to #12)
Brit
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loved this post nmfb

Jan 5 - 10AM
Brit
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It takes a bit longer

Jan 6 - 8AM (Reply to #10)
Not-this-time
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I love your response Brit. I

Jan 5 - 10AM
lessonlearned
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letting go is a process

Jan 6 - 8AM (Reply to #8)
Not-this-time
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Lessonlearned, yes you are

Jan 5 - 10AM
Luv2bme
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I heard the same thing..

Jan 6 - 8AM (Reply to #6)
Not-this-time
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Luv2bMe, what an ASS!!!

Jan 5 - 9AM
Ruby
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It's a long road and

Jan 5 - 10AM (Reply to #4)
Not-this-time
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Thank you masquerade for your

Jan 5 - 9AM
unbreakable
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I feel for you NTT, I'm where

Jan 5 - 10AM (Reply to #2)
Not-this-time
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Unbreakable, thank you for