NC - day 93!

Hi there,
I've been reading the forums daily but have not contributed anything in awhile. I now feel ready to do so.

Today was a big day for me. I had my court case with respect to a car accident I was involved in in 2010 (where I was hit, no serious injuries). The exN was to be a main witness to establish damages and a couple of other factors. I made the mistake of engaging with him again and it ended up worse than the first time. He ended up threatening me and sending me horrible, threatening texts and emails.

I just returned from court, and did not do well due to the loss of his witness statement. However, I feel like I won - I feel like I'm finally starting to move on and I'd rather take the losses I took today than have had to ask for anything from him ever again. Even though I pretty much lost - I won in my opinion. I won in the sense that I'm starting to get my life back. It really doesn't happen without NC and everyday that passes makes me stronger. I even saw the exN out with a new woman, and strangely enough I felt nothing but pity - pity for his life, and for what she is about to endure. I know that I will go on to live a happier life because I have the ability to love, trust and care for other people.

I wanted to say thanks to everyone for being so great - just reading the forums, I can see how many people have been through similar and much worse situations - and I have nothing but respect for individuals who can go through it and come out stronger - while still being the same caring and loving people they were before. That's how we all win I think - by not losing any of the great qualities we had before.

It hasn't been easy and my emotions change from day to day-but overall I'm feeling stronger. Thank you ladies...below is one of my favourite quotes that I believe apply to so many here...

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”