My mind is racing.

I am spinning right now. I need someone to set me straight. So my N is my neighbor, and I just saw him come home, and then 30 mins later a jeep pulled into his driveway. I remember a few months ago when I became suspicious of him sleeping with other people I asked him about the jeep, and he said it was his roommate’s mothers vehicle. Now, I am pretty sure his roommate moved out since they all have to move out by the end of the month. And I know his roommate isn’t there, cause his car isn’t there. Obviously that was a lie. And then I remember having yet another conversation with him about it, and he said he told me the truth, and then said “Are you coming up? If not I am calling others to crawl on?” This was during the end… and I am looking back at all these things… and I want to call him right now and ask him why?!?! Why did you lie to me?!? I am so upset right now. I have been doing so well. It’s been 62 NC, minus one hoover. But, now I am reeling and I feel sick. I just don’t understand how someone could lie so much, and manipulate. It breaks my heart. I hate having these bad days. I have learned so much, and come to so many realizations, but its days like this that kills.