My first day of therapy!

Hi guys
I just thought I'd keep you up to date on my progress today. I went for my first assessment for therapy today I had to go through all my personal issues regarding my relationship with the narc and also issues stemming back to childhood with the mother. I have to wait a little while longer as there's a short waiting list but just being in the right hands has really lifted my spirits today even if its just being able to get it all out there! She suggested councilling however I stated that it was cbt that I'm looking for as councilling stripped me bare last time n there's so much codependency to work on that I feel it's that that should be taking preference over the lot! I'm starting to read more n more on codependency and have just realised that I have 34 years of conditioning to brake which leaves me very anxious but I'm going to start small and work from there. I have to do this as I'm a professional running a team and I'm struggling like you wouldn't believe and leaving myself wide open to be trampled on so I've realised I've reached a point in my life where I need to address this and isn't going to be easy! I'm still not crying and I know that may come but I'm having some good days on and off and going to keep doing the work as I'm thinking you only get out what you put in. I see myself one day as a strong independent woman that's not an extension of anyone and a woman that knows what she wants and has no problem expressing it n if people don't like it then tough luck a woman that's confident in her own skin and her own opinions! I like the sound of that and I think that's definitely gotta be something worth working towards hasn't it! Xoxox