Moving On has Moved On..Finally

I haven't posted much of anything on here in some time, but would occassionally stop back and read some posts. There was a long period where I just couldn't come on here. It seemed to keep me stuck on him and all that had happened and what I really needed to be doing was putting what I learned into practice. Yesterday, was the first time I posted in months. Initially I was on here frequently, it was a life saver. I will forever be grateful for those who gave me advice, encouragement and some straight up hard to hear truth that I so badly needed to hear. To those of you still struggling, please listen! It really hurts to hear the truth, but it doesn't change the fact that it IS the truth. NC is so very hard at first and I had a terrible addiction to checking his email which just kept me stuck on his life.

I feel happier than I have in a very long time. I was thinking I finally feel like the person I was when I first met my ex, but then I decided that's not true. I feel better than that! I am happy and wiser and in a much better place than I ever was when I first met him. I put in a lot of work and continue do so with therapy. I have joined a gym, signed up for my first half-marathan (half way through the training), joined some groups for my interests - cooking, book club, single parents, adventures for women. I am creating the life I had always wanted. Without the constant drama I have so much time to put into my dreams and build a better life for me and my kids. If I had stayed stuck, I would still be spinning, stuck and just miserable. I had not really been happy for a very long time. All those pretty words are just that...words..meaningless.

It really does get better, but it does take a lot of effort and courage. No one can do it for you. I've learned you have to learn to live through that uncomfortable stage to get to the other side. Yes, sometimes it is lonely, but I have found I have to fill that void with something good for me and push through.

We all deserve so much more than the crumbs we were getting and believed it was such a prize. It's time to believe YOU are the prize! Best of luck to all on your path forward. And a million thanks to those who helped me on my path forward.