Moving on

Hi beautiful people. I have popped in today to post here with love and gratitude to you all and especially to those ( I have not forgotten ) who inspired and showed me how to climb out of my own personal dark abyss. I have looked in on you all from time to time and I see how the pioneers here are still encouraging and motivating us to recover and find our own worth.

It's a source of pleasure to me to discover and be reminded that the beautiful souls on this site continue to 'fix' that part of ourselves when we have lost all hope of ever finding our way again. The girls and boys here always have just the right amount of words to say, helping us decipher all the craziness of a narc experience.

Two years and twenty five weeks after landing here, I can honestly tell you all that without ever finding this site, I would have been forever stuck, chained and bound to my old belief system. The ex n did a fabulous job on me, making me feel and ultimately acting as if I was effed up without any basic human rights. I was brainwashed and attached to negativity with brief respite pauses if n felt inclined to show some lieniency. I admit I was totally addicted to him but seriously never knew it. I truly believed in making him happy. I had forgotten that I also had a few needs that should have been important. I guess you could say I was down trodden to such an extent that each and all my boundaries were missing.

The great, fabulous news is that now I have stronger boundaries than I ever had. My ego is back, and although I worried that it would be a super ego, it has found its own level, whereby I am balanced. (I always was, I had just forgotten). I drove myself home with the navigational skills bestowed upon me here, and I arrived at a place of pure joy. My narc days are far behind me and wow has life opened up to me! We all have only one life, so engineer it the right way. Motivate yourself to look for happiness, it's all around you. Once the dark cloud of n passes over, your real life awaits. Don't be the n victim, learn and educated yourself about being reliant and caring towards those that deserve it. Let the n go out into the cosmos with a swift kick up the rear!

if you have just started this journey, then please know it will get better. Together we are strong. I'm proud to stand with you all. We are all moving on together.

Brit x