moved out

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#1 Sep 10 - 1PM

Anabelle

moved out

I gave back today the apartment we were planning to live together.

We were long distance and 2 weeks after my move he kicked me out. I was all by myself there.. he didn't care... he didn't care about me or how will I survive or if I have any support. Just kicked me out and left me there with those troubles, issues, bills... I had to look for a new tenant. I moved all the stuff out today. So many boxes. I am tired.
Literrally I am homeless now. Living at a friends place temporary. Broke. On every possible way. I was sitting in that apartment, thinking how would it be...but he never not for a single minute meant to be with me there. I was sitting there... looking around.. Realized how much pain did he caused me. I was so lost in the last years while being with him. But I honestly, truly loved him. The first man in my life I've truly loved.

Need to move on. I left everything there, everything what reminded me of him. I know all his crazy moves and all the pain is real, because I have been trough all these... but it seems like a dream.

I am happy he is gone. I can start to build my own life... and maybe.. one day, there will be someone who really wants me, just as I am....

#2 Sep 11 - 9PM

onthewayout

Our electricity should be shut off this week

I am taking my daughter and our clothes and going to the shelter when it happens. I have no car, money, etc. He has destroyed everything. I have a job, though. I am terrified that I cant make it on my own. I am afraid of everything. I gotta do it. Take a leap of faith that when I leave him, it will get better. It has got to be better than this.

#3 Sep 12 - 1AM (Reply to #17)

Anabelle

onthewayout

I am so sorry!!!! I don't have a child and I stay at friends so I am lucky... But YOU can make it!!! I understand that this is super hard. I know how bad is to be in a hopeless situation. It's ok to be afraid. But you have a daughter and she need you. I am sure she realizes that there is trouble, but you guys are there for each other. Try to reach out for help. Is there any relatives you could call or a support group??? IT'S GONNA BE better every single day!!! And yes it was the right thing to do to leave him. Stay strong!!!! Annabelle

#4 Sep 11 - 9PM

onthewayout

Our electricity should be shut off this week

#5 Sep 10 - 2PM

Happy1

Anabelle

I hear your pain and understand your pain. It's hard right now, but you have to know that things will get better now. You are away from him and that's what is really important right now. He can't hurt you again and you will get stronger now and things will start looking clearer and better. I promise. Hang in there and you are blessed to have a good friends. Stay close to this site and post your pain as much as you need. Hugs

#6 Sep 10 - 2PM

patricia barely...

Dear dear Anabelle, I so

Dear dear Anabelle, I so feel your pain. It´s beyond anything I could ever imagine, your heart and soul, dreams, beliefs, and everything you trusted, including yourself, left shattered into pieces. The pain is excruciating and it feels like it will never go away. BUT no matter how much it hurts, think of how far you´ve come to get to this point. You´re almost out of this nightmare, for real. The other side of the pain is almost there, and at least in this last phase of the nightmare, you will be n-free, just you, and all your beauty, love, compassion, and your light. There will no no-one there to suck it all out of you, and that is EXCELLENT news. Cry your eyes out, and let the wave ride. It will go away, I promise. Lots of love

#7 Sep 10 - 2PM (Reply to #13)

Anabelle

I didn't cry today. I will

I didn't cry today. I will not cry. NOT a single tear for him. All i had for him and even more, it's gone. I am not devastated. Just extremely sad. Broken dreams. I think each of you, who reached the point where you have a chance to look around... I think that's the point when you can tell, HEY I SURVIVED! I feel sad and disappointed. But I also feel the clarity around me. That there is no more fool games. Ruins yes. A hard work ahead yes. But I CAN'T afford to be even more destroyed and let myself once again down. Life is waiting for me. I have to find my way and fight for the first few months hard like a tiger... but at east it will be for me... not for some kind of crazy dream, for a crazy man.... I want you to be all strong and I want you to all loft your head up and stand straight! You are stronger than a rock. I call you from the ruins and box parade: PLEASE SHOW IT TO THEM!!!!!

#8 Sep 10 - 1PM

Used

anabelle

you mean he got you to move then dropped you...omg what a cold callous bastard....one day,yes you will meet a man who loves you with his whole beign and for who you are...in the meantime...welcome here and begin to heal..b/c this is where it begins...the learning..the reading ...the whole story....x

#9 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #9)

Anabelle

He did that. He made me sign

He did that. He made me sign the contract with me and he left me, knowing not having a job. For now I decided to keep a small healthy piece of my heart and save it for that very brave man, who one day will come and take me with this experience of mine... Thank you Used :)

#10 Sep 10 - 2PM (Reply to #10)

Used

anabelle

is your story here, i dont remember seeing it? xx

#11 Sep 10 - 2PM (Reply to #11)

Anabelle

?

It happened today. But I am here for a month now... so I don't know... I mean, I don't understand the question.

#12 Sep 10 - 1PM

RubyWoo

Of course there will be

Of course there will be someone who really really loves you Anabelle, you deserve it! I'm in the same hopeless and sad situation, except I am still in the apartment we used to share and he moved out onto greener pastures. Sitting here looking around and just wondering "what the hell just happened?" is something I can relate to :( *hugs*

#13 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #2)

Anabelle

Thank you. I know how does it

Thank you. I know how does it feel. I just sat there today and I was sad. Sad and lonely. I felt so lonely, that it was painful. Lonely, betrayed and discarded. Like a discarded valentine. I listened to the song The end of the line... well... I hope at least he is happy with OW... So that all this pain wasn't just for nothing Keep on going. I am sure there will be our turn one day on the happy palyground :)

#14 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #6)

lillymarch

I don't see how you can want him to be happy.

I guess I'm not advanced enough yet in this healin process. Imagining you alone in that apartment, moving your stuff out alone and now staying at a friends homeless, I just want to scream! You don't deserve this. And he doesn't deserve to be happy. He's a selfish bastard. Period. And he deserves to feel how terrible it is to be one. I know you can rise above this! Soon he will be out of your mind and you will have created the opening for someone new to come into your life. Get excited about this new adventure that you're on. Hugs to you

#15 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #7)

Anabelle

:) I don't want him to be

:) I don't want him to be happy/sad or anything. I just think AT least if he would be happy, there would be A reason for my pain... but because I KNOW he is not... he is pretending... all this love, time and effort was for nothing. Do you understand what I mean? :) Thank you for the nice words :) I am so sad now, that I can't tell you guys. But You know, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger :) So ... :)

#16 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #3)

RubyWoo

So sorry to hear there is

So sorry to hear there is OW... Did you break up with him or did he break up with you? Either way it is SO painful. I suspect my exN has OW too, I don't know for sure but I've seen things and read things (snooping, yes but at least I opened my eyes a little) She is blonde and skinny with blue eyes... I'm a Kim Kardashian type of woman, go figure!! You described it perfectly. Betrayed, discarded and so lonely. Saturday evening here and my plans are to sit and watch girly shows while he's out doing god knows what. So not fair. I do hope you find a man who loves you soooooooooo much it makes up for all this pain :)

#17 Sep 10 - 1PM (Reply to #4)

Anabelle

He left me. He told me things

He left me. He told me things I will never forget... We had a fight. We made up, because he begged me not to leave him. The next morning, he kissed me good bye telling me that we are a team and we fix everything and he loves me. I couldn't reach him anymore that day. The next morning he left me for OW, being in love with her. The same afternoon he was in a relationship with OW on FB... :) That's life. There is ALWAYS an OW... otherwise he would be sitting next to you watching the show with you. They can't be on their own longer than a sec.

#18 Sep 10 - 2PM (Reply to #5)

RubyWoo

Gosh I am so sorry, it must

Gosh I am so sorry, it must have been so horrible for you to go through that :( I know that usually they go from one woman to the next, and it's killing me. Makes me feel so damn unworthy!! :(

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