Missing him; Finding the strength. | Lisa E. Scott

3 posts / 0 new

Last post

#1 Mar 20 - 1PM

Anonymous (not verified)

Missing him; Finding the strength.

Mumford and Sons: The Cave

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand

So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand

So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y

I love this song because it's so fitting for what we have all expereienced and I draw strength from it. I've been missing him and when I do, I allow myself to feel the emotions but I search for strength not to fall into behavior that would be damaging to my healing. I'd love to hear what everyone does when they are feeling weak?

#2 Mar 21 - 12AM

It'sAllAboutMeNow (not verified)

The songs...

The songs drive me nuts sometimes. There are so many that remind me of him and I try to force my self to listen to them so I can desensitize myself. That might sound a little saddistice but I just can't handle the thought of him having that kind of control over me still. These are songs I enjoy and I don't want to have to change the station because of him. Although when I hear the ones that he would tell me reminded him of me, I turn up the radio loud and induldge in the idea that every time he hears them he will think of me. Sounds sick I know but the fact that they can hurt us like this and not really feel it in return kills me somtimes. Something I found interesting was that I would find songs that I liked on his iPod. I mean even songs he teased me about liking. I thought it was cute before until I read that N's emulate those that they idealize because they themselves suppress their true identity. So, I guess it makes sense. Still a little twisted. As for little lion man... I do like that song as well. It's kind of ironic that he liked that song too. I looked up the lyrics and it's actually about a father singing to his son about how he has screwed up with him. Well, my exN's father walked out on him when he was 5 and never looked back. I have wondered if he actually ever listened to the meaning of the song.

#3 Mar 20 - 4PM

Precious

I listen to that song also,

I listen to that song also, (Little Lion Man is good too)and have found that music (as long as it isn't music that reminds me of him) helps me to get some of my emotions out so that I can deal with them. I've been so used to stuffing all my pain inside, but I know that isn't healthy so I'm working on releasing the poison. Adele has some really powerful music, you may like that relates very well to our pain. The best thing for me when I am missing my soon to be ex is to reach out to a friend, call someone, or come here where you know we understand. Writing is good too, especially write the bad stuff in as much detail as you can remember, because I notice that the longer I'm away, the more I forget the bad and want to remember the good. I can't let myself do that though, so I write so that I won't forget what hell I went through. I hope that helped a little.