Milestones...I think...

120 days NC...today....I would NEVER have thought I'd make it this far without caving...but.....I DID!!!!

I read a post earlier...someone feeling bad because she wasn't being hoovered....no pursuit...no nothing....that's me too....

I don't want him back, but I do wonder...I fully realize what any contact would do...but...I really would like to think I meant something...anything....

4 years worth....just a big fucking mind game for this man....do they take classes on trashing people's self esteem???

I'll get it back...I really didn't grasp how low I'd sunk till recently...thank God for everyone here!!!

Ok...on a different note....Wednesday night at work, a male officer told a joke that ended up with me being very inappropriately groped...I was totally caught off guard....embarrassed....he had this planned out, I later found out....threw me 5 dollars because "the look on my face was priceless"....REALLY????????????? This jackass threw a 5 dollar bill at me like I was some kind of hooker!!!!!!!

These freaks are everywhere!!!!!!I'm surrounded!!!!!!But.....one thing I know now..................................................................................................................................................................................................

I don't hit like a girl..................................