Me and my stupid stalking

I hit the 2 week mark and thought that in spite of a tough week where the tears seemed to spring up out of nowhere, I was getting on with it. I dumped him off Facebook, LinkedIn, my iphone, hotmail and gmail. Then I had this cerebral niggling, wondering if he got back online. I went on Match and found him very easily (under a different handle). His headline is: Something's Missing...Maybe Its You?" I felt like the scab on my heart got ripped off. I knew that was his reflection of me..."something's missing"....and then this flood of emotions came. I thought "yeah, something's missing...maybe its your soul." I felt hurt, angry, confused, and ashamed that I had to know. How do you go from talking about marriage next month to not saying a WORD about the fact that its over? I mean, who does that? (I know, rhetorical question).

When I read this new and improved profile, I was stunned to see such blatant arrogance! "I'm confident in my looks, as I get my share of compliments," "I'll rush you pictures if you want to know more,"...."most importantly, I know when to listen and will ask what led to your decision rather than judging you for it." I didn't know this guy at all! Had I seen that type of profile, I would've never even responded, let alone travel across the border for weeks while he got his passport! It was like his NPD is in overdrive! Did I feel better knowing he's looking for his next victim? Not at all. I'm angry at myself for inviting the setback. I did this to myself knowing deep in my heart that the pain would be fresh and I would go back to START. I'm just venting on me, more than him. Maybe I'll get to that place soon where I'll get angry about being treated like yesterday's trash, rather than a real person. Does anyone wonder if, after the wound is healed, that they'll be able to recognize the counterfeit from the real? I thought I was a good judge of character....now I'm not so sure. Thoughts?