let's talk about sex

My husband was having Skype/Web cam sex with strangers starting about 2 years ago. I know because I came across screen shots from the web cam.

I couldn't keep up with his sexual needs. On our wedding night he asked me for anal sex and said he 'wanted every part of me' and that this was a gift I should give to him. He has specific instructions on how to make me more comfortable to prepare me. I always regretted it. I look back now and fee sad that we started off our marriage with me debasing myself sexually for him, doing something I wasn't comfortable doing. I so much wanted to please him, and I felt good knowing that I gave him what he most wanted.

But I couldn't keep up with him sexually. I couldn't even keep up with the rate / speed he needed to masturbate or when having sex he pounded on me so hard and fast it was impossible. (GRAPHIC) When I would ride him, I could not do it fast enough. This was always a problem. There was no normal rythym in our sex life, he was always needing it to me fast and hard. It was too much for me. I was exhausted after sex with him. Once was never enough, he wanted it 3 times not one. So at night we would have sex 3 times and I was spent after the 1st.

Also, he would pose me. As in 'here do this, sit this way, lay this way,' he would position me. I read here, other people say they felt like an object. I never saw it this way! it was like I was an object.

Since I couldn't do him 'fast' enough, well he would stop and do it himself. Then he would use me as a tool , touching me touching himself until he climaxed.