Is this kinda 'normal'???

I worry a lot....obviously....

I am going to write here EXACTLY how I feel and sometimes how I act. Does anyone else who's been through this ever feel/act like this or am I truly now a 'disordered freak' myself?

I feel:
Self conscious
A bit paranoid.
Hypersensitive.
I become startled easily.
Flashes of pure rage followed by guilt for feeling this?
At times somewhat calmer than I have ever been??

My behaviour:
Shorter temper...
Yet sometimes calmer??
More abrupt.
More 'awake'!
Yet more lethargic...?
Greater resolve followed by serious bouts of indecision and decreased productivity..
Detached...

I feel constant turmoil...so am I officially losing it?
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