From Kik to The Path Forward

Perhaps I am healing after all. Three months ago I would have been looking forward to a Kik message from my ex who I claim to have left. I did in fact leave him almost two years ago, and he simply grabbed another hapless soul to adhese himself to. He never text messages me because the new victim throws temper tantrums if he talks to me, even though I have three children by him that he has yet to support.

It's been a huge battle letting go of my grief; not over letting him go but just from not having something else (something healthy) to direct my attention to other than him! The emptiness is what gets to me. So today, I post here and begin to release some of the pain through writing in my blog and sharing with others.

I have made small baby steps only to wake up the next day darker inside than before but for this very moment, this seems to be like a valve letting off the sludge that lives in my heart where he once was. Thank you.