Just need to write

Please bear with me...

I try not to cyber stalk. Had a couple glasses of Chablis and...

He's ill. It's his NS's FB I can't help but look at. Been 7 days but I'm struggling and here I am...

He's not working, heavily sedated on prescription meds, BIG anxiety problems.

So... its not (as assumed) living the dream with NS.

I'm in shock. He's just as ill as when he left me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not about to intervene. Part of me should be gloating. But part of me is sympathetic and wonders if I missed something.

I'm happy to know that NS clearly adores him and is supporting him in the way In can't.

I'm empathising as only a non-narc can.

But have I turned my back on the love of my life??