Just checking in with a message of hope...
Just checking in with a message of hope...
...I wasn't sure which forum to post this on and think I'll try for both. The 'regulars' here know me as the damaged, broken, fog-filled wounded one who in early NC had cognitive dissonance so bad I didn't even know what was happening, could barely comprehend what had happened with the horrible D & D, etc. Plus my parent was dying. This was all around November.
Well, I am here to tell all of you struggling so hard with NC that I am 5.5 months NC and things are getting MUCH MUCH better. The focus is WAY OFF the disordered one...I don't even think of revenge as much...and my mood has lifted, people are responding positively to me, life is feeling actually pretty good (despite what's going on financially, with the weather, obligations, the loss of my parent). I never thought I'd reach this level of peace. I still have a way to go and still have some bad days, but I just want to let you all know that if you stay the course and shift the focus things to change for the better. Things improve a lot!
For a long time (look how long I've been a member, I joined when I was trying to get out of the disordered relationship) I knew the disordered one was very bad for me. I had NEVER BEEN TREATED SO POORLY, yet I felt I couldn't stop it. I let him hoover many times. I kept going back. I now know longer WANT any part of ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM. I cannot believe how liberating it is to be free of the high drama, the anxiety, the always waiting for the other shoe to drop, the lies, the manipulations...
Concentrate on shifting the focus. What you give your thoughts and therefore your time to is what becomes your life...
Hang in there to all who want to heal and get better. It does happen. I can't wait to experience and share more!
With deep gratitude and most sincerely (think I've stopped) spinning
so happy for you, wish i could have hope for healing
Jaycee
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YAY for "Stopped-Spinning!"
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Yea spinning! I am so happy
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Ideal, my sweet!!!
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Believe in yourself!
Terri
Thank you, terri...
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So happy for you!! Keep