just blue
just blue
Just feeling blue...a lot of triggers this week. I miss my ex pretty badly right now. Feel like curling up and crying...but there's that NH in my bed.
We watched The Burning Bed the other night, and he made several comments about how awful Farrah's husband was...and he was so glad she got off in the end. I couldn't finish watching it because I was having flashbacks to being stalked when in college. He of course kept watching. Then we went to bed and I told him the movie brought back a lot of bad memories...he kept his back to me and gave out an annoyed sigh. Like an idiot, I said, could you hold me?
He just ignored me. Tears started welling up...and then a few minutes later he said...Why? He's such a jerk. I said just for comfort! So he halfheartedly put his arm around me. It was worse than being ignored. I said I can see I'm putting you out...and went over to my side of the bed. He says, all innocently, are you mad about something? I didn't say anything and then he says in his martyr voice, well that isn't unusual.
Yes..after all that, he was the victim.
A couple days later and he's all hugs and "I love you, I love you..."
I'm just tired.
A typical N. Unbelievable.
"Cry now because you lost him or cry later because you have him."
better off
Well, here's a HUG for ya!
thanks...I once tried to
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guess I have to face
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