I've Done it Again
I've Done it Again
Hello, everyone . . . I seem to have been "guided" to this Forum by an energy that is greater than myself. The timing couldn't have been more impeccable, either.
If you take a moment to read my profile, you'll understand why I'm so relieved to have found all of you.
I spoke with my narcissistic friend this morning and started off the conversation by setting some pretty impenetrable boundaries as to how much information I was prepared to hear about his antics at the wedding on Saturday night. Boundaries which were, obviously, immediately ignored.
He began to tell me all about how he had begun to forge a strong connection with the woman who invited him. ( At which point my amygdala went into full hijack mode - I got triggered into feeling like a second-class citizen yet again - satisfied to content herself with table scraps ) He was SO entranced by her that he spent the entire next day with her in the company of her extended family, too. ( Help me . . . I'm shrinking ! )
Did he not realize that this information was hurtful to me ?
I cannot emphasize strongly enough that this man and I are merely friends. Nonetheless, I've become somewhat hypnotized by his energy, much to my dismay. I'm sure that this will all be embarrassingly familiar to you ! Might I even go so far as to admit that I suspect I might be falling in "love" with him ?
Not only friends, but we have made the decision to go into business together. He is a Master Painter / Contractor and I will be in charge of the day-to-day running of the operation. As a retired educator, organizational skills are one of my strongest assets.
Predictably, his life is in total disarray and he seems quite content to allow me to step up to the plate to get him back on track.
Because I'm also something of a writer, I agreed to look after all of the content for our new Website in addition to a weekly blog.
Funny thing is, though, I seem to be doing ALL the work as we get ready to launch this new business venture. While deflecting pressure from him to "get cracking" as he heads out the door to stupefy those wedding guests with his good looks and magnetic charisma.
That being said, I have done "the work" with the help of an exceptional therapist to heal the traumatic wounding that I suffered at the hands of two ( count 'em ) narcissistic parents and both siblings.
I have embraced "mindfulness" and live my life according to its guiding, peaceful principles.
So, how has it been possible for me to fall into this old trap again ? Are some archetypes so burned into those primal neural pathways that I'd best live the rest of my days as a cloistered monk ?
please trust me on this one
I get so pissed reading this
No More Denial
The road to recovery is so
Children of Narcissistic Parents
recovery
Aviatrix
The Story of the Dog Whisperer
How I Found You ?
Well welcome.. You say you
Honesty and Shame
Sounds like the doorknob
Hunter is right
From the Doorknob
Painting ain't rocket
You keep walking into shit.
"but..." and "try..."
Mindful A
Only you know the answer, Mindful A
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Thank You, Spinning
Keep reading here, MA, and your
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