i'm a total failure.......i'm so depressed.......
i'm a total failure.......i'm so depressed.......
my pets are the only things in the world i care about..they are my family...i love them...more than my own life.....
and i have failed them.....
the psychopath murdered BEN...because i failed to keep BEN safe from him....i left him alone with my baby...just for a couple of minutes...but that's all it took...i failed...
and i've failed all the others too...we live in this nasty little shack...they don't get the food they deserve...the medical care they need.....because i failed them....i failed them by not doing something about the psychopath earlier....by not killing him...because i knew it was the only way i would ever be rid of him....i failed by not stepping up the plate and blowing that bastard away years ago......
the psychopath set me up to fail...he despised my love for my pets even more than he despised me....he purposely destroyed my income...my home...because he knew that if i lost my family, that would be the ultimate failure for me...the ultimate heartbreak.....he knew he could kill me that way...in the most slow and painful horrible way imaginable...and he did it.....
he got off easy...he died quickly and in little pain...but he's still killing me..slowly and surely..
what has happened to me was always my worst nightmare....and he made it come true.....
i had spent years busting my ass to have what i had...for my family...and i'll never have that again....the thought of spending the rest of my like eeking out an existence, not a life...and watching them do without makes me want to just curl up and die.......
i am a complete and utter failure..i didn't even get vengeance for BEN....the psychopath killed himself...i think he probably drank himself to death on purpose to tell you the truth...the only out he had left.....so he took it......
he murdered BEN..the love of my life....and dead or alive he got away with it...and i failed..failed to protect them...failed to get him away from us...failed to stop him before he could destroy everything.....i failed.....and the psychopath won......
HIS SOLEMN OATHS
BEN.....
Thank you NarcNarc
You are not a failure...you're amazing
narcnarc
I'm sorry, narcnarc. So,
Ben
narcnarc
the floodgates bursting open......
NN
http://hubpages.com/hub/Married-to-a-Narcissist?preview
nolongercontrolled
donations
suicide interrupted......
It was suicide i recon, but
A very wise comrade sister
Damn, Scoop........
f... them all
regrets...regrets...regrets........
i'm just sick......just heartsick.......
He is dead and you are alive
You are in my thoughts
it makes me phsycially ill.....
narcnarc
narcnarc
NONONARCNARC
checking out.......
I think you're giving him
his apartment was an eye opening experience......
desperation