i'm having a terrible day
i'm having a terrible day
this is so hard :(
my psychlogist says ups and downs are normal. i'm just really overwhelmed right now.
i'm so scared to be on my own, and i'm so afriad i'll never find someone new. I feel like at 31 i'm too old to start over. everyone my age is already married. I WANT to be married.
meanwhile, he's a 'sophisticated' 44. he can just go replace me easily. all he needs is a warm body.
i'm so picky anyway. i go out on dates and it's so boring, depressing... plus, most guys my age, if they are single, don't even want to settle down it seems.
I know, i know, 18 months. but what is going to change is the dating world at that time? the guys will still be the same.
i wake up at all hours of the night, trying to figure out when it went wrong. trying to soothe myself by saying he's pathlogical and i couldn't have done anything to salvage it, then i start to question if he really is, or if i'm not just hoping he is. I can't sleep with the guilt of feeling like i braught out the worst in him, and if i had just been less financially demanding and appreciative it would have been better. it seems most women on here were duped money wise. I wasn't at all. i got financially supported. he gave me a car within the first two months of us dating.
if i could have somehow made it work, i could have gotten anything i wanted. i feel like a failure and the only thing i know how to do is post something here and get reassurance.
i'm afriad i'm damaged forever. i feel like a loser. i'm sleepy and lonely and angry and i miss my old life. the good parts of it.
fireflie honey
When losing is winning
coulda, woulda, shouda wow
fooled no longer
Fierflie
Nevergoback
Fierflie,
fooled no longer
my dearest Fierflie
You did nothing wrong. You
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Fierflie
briesis
And what about all those
Nevergoback
Damn right, Nancy
rollercoastin' w. Fierflie
~~~ Keep Learning & Keep Healing ~~~
~~~~~ The best revenge is to survive and be victorious over it. Nobody can take from you what you don't give them.
Fierflie
is there a shoe for his foot
Fierflie...
good one
Fierflie
Nevergoback
fierflie
Oh Fierflie,
MsVulcan500
We're in the same boat
i am on match. i guess i'm