I'm going slightly mad....
I'm going slightly mad....
I'm not going to bore you and go into detail, but by reading as much as I can on this site, I realise I have been in a relationship with a Narcissist man . We're in our late forties and we've been together for three years and he's treated me so badly that I hardly know what to do. Of course there have been some wonderful times...which have made me love him unconditionally and this is where I'm tormented.
I KNOW what this man is. I have given 100% love and he's chucked it back in my face so many times. He's controlling, doesn't want me to see friends, wants to isolate me, shouts at me, walks out on me and so much more.
Last week I must have done something that upset him and he suddenly won't take my calls. I called him 17 times in a row and he either hung up or never picked up. I was almost hysterical.
I suddenly saw myself from the outside....what was I doing? Acting like some crazy woman as he obviously doesn't want to speak to me.
Now this is what I don't understand. I KNOW this man is poison, selfish, controlling and arrogant. I now know he never really loved me as he is able to discard me without a backward glance.....so why do I feel so devastated? I thought I'd feel relieved to escape, but instead I feel desperate. I feel I love him so much that I cannot live without him ....I don't know how I'll go on without him.
It's mad, but I don't know what to do. I want to go round to his home and BEG him not to leave me, but what will I do when he refuses?
He is in my thoughts 24/7 and all I can think about are the nice things we shared. I feel like every nerve in my body is alerted with anxiety. Keep thinking maybe I got it wrong and I'm the bad one.
Maybe I'm going insane.....
You got hooked on the drug
Linny
Getting there...
im glad you are coming back
toots
See! You're not going slightly mad
Actually UNDERSTANDING narcissm has helped...
What you describe is why we
This is so painful to read. I
You are mainline addicted.
Exactly!
Linny..
Thank you....
little bit crazy
Unconditional love
Loving yourself is the best
do you love YOURSELF,
hi Your post reminded me of
Firstly you're not crazy.
Hi, Linny....and
spinning
Going slightly Mad....
Linny
Hi Linny