is ignoring them the only way to get them back
is ignoring them the only way to get them back
as some know I have to still deal with mine due to this project that keeps getting delayed... anyway, I was doing fairly well just going along with things... the N was being nice... so all was well. then slam goes the axe and now things got really bad.
N went behind my back (no surprise) but his version of it ...was he was doing so at my wish to not involve me ( i think he seriously believes this he is that messed up)
he claims I rant (AKA i call him on his behaviour) I told him a friend wouldnt do such a thing and I was baffled.
which followed with three long emails from him... all about how he fears me now and cant trust me etc. I have to admit I did threaten him last week...with reporting his bad behaviour.
basically yesterday I told him we could only discuss the business stuff and keep it to that etc. Well i guess N didnt like this
so tonite I get blasted about that too and now he is telling me not to contact him.
meanwhile the project is now on hold because he changed the rules...again.
and No there is no one I can replace him with he is so involved...it just sux.
I can just see him sitting back though laughing at me...his fall back girl I am sure thinks i am nutzo.
I dont quite get her either...how she is treated so beyond well...and thinks this is all me. that I am the problem.
so now I have to obey the N and not contact him and when I do I better have a plan to proceed (wth!)
I'm just mad at myself for falling for the nice him... although I did pickup on a vibe that he was being overly nice to me. he even bought me a some food. (and now I dont know whether to send the money back to him... because he will hold that over me)
I dont know how to proceed other than to move to an island and work remotely.... as it is we arent face to face in an office...
from therapy sessions in the past I recognize my ego is taking a beating... and that is why I react... I need to remember what I learned back then... and just walk away... until I regroup. I was so good at it for a very very long time. Im just vulerable right now due to health issues (wonder why I feel so ill) stupid N. and he blames me for making him ill.
I know I am strong, I am better than this N... I just have to regain my control again and I will. he will come a creeping that I do knnow... he has it out for me.
he is scared of me now so much so he has his emails fwd to another acct so backup girl cant read them.
my name is destiny and I think I'm addicted to this drama and want it to end. but my ego keeps wanting to go back at him even now I want to just send him an email. he makes it that it is all me, I guess what I want is someone to tell me it isnt :/
destiny
Destiny
thanks Goldie- you are 100%
by ignoring the narc
Hey Destiny
Destiny, I think you are
PS
oh i didnt mean it that way
i think I am all cried out...
You're doing great! Just read
I love it
a twit is exactly what these