I Wasn't Nice

Well I did what everyone, including my therapist, told me not to do. I wrote the N a really nasty email.

He sent me a text that was infuriating, so I snapped and sent him an email that NO ONE should ever receive. Then I felt terribly guilty for being so mean. That is NOT my nature, nor my maturity level. Everything I stated was true…..but I still felt bad.

So I was thinking I probably helped myself with the NC, because he would be so incensed that he would never contact me again. Right?

Yesterday I received a text that said "Morning Pants." (That was his nickname for me.) I couldn't believe it.

So…yesterday was my beginning of NC because I didn't and haven't replied to that text. I've tried this before, but this time I'm done going in circles. I just can't do it anymore.