I really feel like shit
I really feel like shit
Guys, I'm really forcing myself to just get over it and remember who he is.. but i really feel like shit. One contact with him and i feel like I'm the bad one, i was so angry at what he did to me I can't even look at him, and him acting so innocent. Yes, I made it clear I was angry but who wouldn't? He left his family me for an OW who was nasty to me and the topping on the cake is they now live together while me and his daughter are alone.
I know I should be fine, he is not worth it, he is disordered, he never treated me right, he cheated on me, i deserve better, but whatever act he put up to make me feel like he was the one for me really was fucking believeable.
I feel like treating him badly because I was angry made him just reconfirm that it was the best thing he did replacing me. But how could I not be angry???
This is my third post since he left yesteday can you believe it? His visit to his daughter obviously affected me so much that I feel so anxious.
Now I understand everyone here who writes about being NC and then BOOM!! one contact and it gets them down so low.
I just identify so much. Your
You are not lying to
Oneofhisexs
No need to keep score
Might as well talk to a wall as to a narc.
It's ok...........it really
One
Right about acceptance
One
One of the Ex's,
spinning
Energy wiped out..
I so know the feeling of the
One of the Exs, I know
spinning
I get so emotional with your comments!