I ran into him!!!!

As I mentioned before we have numerous mutual friends. I have been no contact for over 3months. I surprisingly am not devastated and have been staying busy attending functions, exercising, cooking again,loving my children more then ever!!! Life is good. On the weekend, a friend of ours had a get together at a local bar, which has a beautiful patio. I showed up with his cousin, we talked to old friends from highschool, had some drinks and some food and hungout. Sure enough he showed up (altho he would have never gone if we were together) So I took that as him going just to see me.

Heres where Im struggling. The sight of him repulsed me, when he spoke to people and I overheard some of his
conversations, I would laugh in my head at what a fraud he is. Nothing he says is the truth. NOTHING. He was telling people how amazing his son is and how he is such a great father. He was saying how he raises his son and is then a bachelor on the weekends. hahahhaha - which made me laugh so hard. I felt relieved that, I no longer had to listen to this babble, and seeing him didnt make me sad. Dont get me wrong, I have had moments where I just wanted to be held by him. But not really anymore. I know its only been 3 months, but maybe because I had been trying to get out for so much longer, he just doesnt matter anymore. He has become a joke.

He even tried to "explain" himself and tried to tell me how much he loves me and misses me and hopes one day when he can be better I will take him back. ahahahahahahah - YA RIGHT! The whole time saying maybe we could just try again....or be friends. I told him the only person he cares about is himself and to go away. (I didnt want to make a scene). It worked, he left.

People actually came up to me (mainly guys) that I had gone to school with and said, "what the hell were you
thinking staying with him so long, we have been trying to figure out how he kept you" It made things even clearer for me.

Yes, I struggle everyday with my self esteem and self worth, but I never ever ever again want to have that sort of relationship with him, or anyone else for that matter. I like my new life, raising my children, having every second weekend to myself to clean/get organized, hang out with my girls. I like going home alone (most nights). No contact has taught me so much.

Im just wondering, if its too soon for me to feel this way? How did I become repulsed so quickly?

I just want to thank you ladies as well, I could not have done this without you. This site is a blessing, and Barbara, thanks so much for your tough love over the last year, its what I needed!!!! You guys are great!