I need your help, please
I need your help, please
I'm new and not new here. For a long time I've been reading your posts and articles and I think it helped me a lot but now I'm stucked and I don't know what to do.I live in Europe and in my country the subject of narcissism is not very well known. I've been reading all the things in english. I haven't shared my story yet.N has been in my life since I remember. He was my school sweetheart. Then we were a couple for two years.First nine months were fantastic. It was like dream come true, I was so happy. There were red flags. He was talking only about himself, how handsome, fantastic and great he is, how all the women love him, desire him, want to be with him, how lucky I am. He was collecting cars, motorcycles.
He had mood swings but the longer it lasted it was worse and worse.
He D&D four times and each time the period between the D&D lasted shorter. He was charming, full of passion and then:Bum: cruel, cold, he was just disappearing and I couldn't even reach him. He had something in his eyes and I knew that this will happen again.
The second year of our relationship was a nightmare. I became a different person. I was nerovous, I didn't know what to expect. I felt so horrible, ugly, not good enough for him.I was trying and trying but it wasn't enough. He expected me to guess his wishes. For last one year he's been writting to me but I didn't respond.
Finally two weeks ago I answered and he hurt me again. Now, as I know, he's got a new girl and even I know, I read all the things, I feel so worthless and I'm wondering what she has got that I don't have. I wonder if they're happy. I was always there for him and with him when his father died and he treated me like a piece of shit.
I cannot forget it. I cannot trust.I feel like in the middle of the hell.I cannot move on. I don't know how to help myself.Therapy doesn't work.I had to write it here.
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