I need a short sharp kick up the backside!!!!
I need a short sharp kick up the backside!!!!
I've read patiencegoals post re wanting to fuck her narc one last time, although I in no way have that same urge with my ex P, I did a real stupid thing last night. This new guy I've started dating (that I have had a few concerns about) invited me to his house yesterday evening. I ummmed and ahhhed as we had arranged to see each other next Monday (I'm TRYING to take it slow). But I went. I had a fantastic evening, wine....a little too much....ahhh sorry Journey. I listened to him talk and kept thinking 'I'm being too hard on this guy, he seems so caring, genuine and pretty bowled over by me. I slept over, as planned, but he had promised to be a gent and he was TOTALLY. It was ME that instigated sex. Not last night, I was a little too worse for wear and just slept in his arms, but I wanted him so bad this morning I threw all caution to the wind and encouraged him. He's been making me feel SO special, saying such wonderful flattering things to me. I feel so comfortable with him and its been so LONG since I've been with anyone. The last was my ex P ten months ago and I guess in a way I wanted to see if I could with another man and it was SO EASY!
I don't feel bad exactly about making love, although I guess after only knowing him for 3 weeks it is a bit soon, I'm cross that it didn't even enter my head to use protection...WTF? I'm 44 for goodness sake, know all the risks, this guy has shown me a few flags that may or may not be red ones and then I go and do something stupid like this. I really didnt even think about it until I've come back and read the resposes to patiencegoals post and now I feel rediculous?
I'll make sure I use something from here on in, he didn't uhhh hum come inside me, but will I now need to go and get checked out do you think? And should I ask him to as well in case this relationship does carry on?
As you can see, I'm not as good as I thought at learning from past mistakes, although I've never contracted an STD before. I've been so caught up in trying to fathom out whether this guy is a PD it's left the rest of my brain desolate GRRRRRRRRRRRRR
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