I need help
I need help
So I am not sure what is wrong with me. Me and my N were together for 3 years, and we have been broken up for 3 months now. This is the 3rd break up now, but this time was different for me, because now I have all the knowledge from the forum. I can see how I got sucked back in all those other times, because I was completely oblivious to how someone with NPD works. So when he was hoovering, I thought he had seen the light finally! Now I know its just part of being a narcissist. So at the beginning of this breakup I was great! I told him I saw him for who he was and never wanted to speak to him again, I completely blocked him from my phone and facebook so he had no way to contact me. There was even a night when I saw him out and he acted completely psychotic and I ignored him and didnt acknowlege his behavior at all. I have still been hurting alot, but I felt like I was getting stonger.
However, this somehow changed. I havent talked to him now for about 2 months. The other night I got a knock on the door, and there he was. I wasn't expecting it, I wasn't prepared for it, and I stupidly answered the door. It was the same thing I've heard 5 million times "I miss you so much, you're all I ever think about, no one compares to you, you're such a catch and I messed it all up...." and about 100 other statements along those lines. That was 2 nights ago, and he has been calling/texting non-stop since then saying the same stuff. I know it's ridiculous but I have actually been replying to him. How did I get back to this place? I KNOW that I would never get back together with him because I know this "faze" wouldnt last for long, but why am I even talking to him? He seems so genuine and so hurt that it makes it easy to believe. Even though i know it's all part of this crazy horrible little thing called narcissistic personality disorder.
Have any of you had these slip-ups/ thoughts even AFTER you had all this knowledge? The addiction to them really is like a drug! You know it's bad for you and will only bring bad things, but in the moment it feels so good. ugh, help me get back into the NC mentality!
Christy stay strong!
Hoover
thank you for posting that
It so hard when the hover
Been there
Thank you all for the replys,
I like the fazey dazey crazy
That's when they strike, they
Christy
Christy m
Thank you for your supportive
Christy m
Chrisy m
Great post Happy1. Christy M