I MADE IT!!!!!! So why am I crying?

Hello everyone,

Well, the final day of court was yesterday. The judge signed off...it's done. The divorce is final. After all I have been through, picking myself up, plastering that smile on my face and going to work every day, I finally made it.

I took today off to celebrate. Got a new hairdo, did some shopping, finally the day I have waited so long for.

And here is sit crying like a lost puppy. Why can't I get over this. He doesn't hoover, he moved over an hour away, so I never see or hear from him, and heaven knows between work and finishing school I have enough to keep me busy. I dont even think of him.I was over that a long time ago, its like I dont even remember him.

So why? Why am I crying like its day 1? All I can think about is how broken I am. The damage I am left with is inside of me and no matter how hard I try, I can't fix it. Why?