He is a drug. You are addicted. They have this effect. If you stay with him you will be hurt. There is nothing that can save you from him besides NC. And the pain is unbearable.
Again. He is a drug. HE. will. not. change. You WILL suffer.
Get out.
The saddest part to me, about seeing situations like this is that we as survivors can give you advice but we cant give you our actual experience. If I could give you my experience so that you could really know what it feels like, I know you would be runnning so fast. All I can do is hope that you take the advice here and just let this one go. Right now it feels like it is going to be hard but once youre away from him for a bit, you will realise that what you were experiencing was a seduction of your mind and you will be so incredibly thankful that you got out when you did. Please, don't be the foolish girl, some foolish girls end up dead.
"sharing the pain of our experiences" -- if only that were possible, I'd make it my life purpose to save others. I can so clearly see all my past relationships in the same vein and am such a changed woman already.
I realize I am healing and will be for some time, but there is a quiet peace that is settling. A strength that is building on top of the sadness. A journey towards wholeness.
He is a drug. You are
Dont do it !
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